The stars.....
So every night for as long as I can remember I've taken a few moments, directed my gaze to the sky, and fixed my stare on one single star....doesn't matter which one...and then, I wish on it. Having typed that so that I can actually read the words out loud makes me sound sort of like a 4th grade daydreamer of a gal....but I'm choosing not dwell on that fact and I'm going to move on.......Anyway, when I perform this nightly ritual it's almost always the same wish, with the exception of a few nights when I was either really angry at someone/thing or feeling really low about someone/thing. Ultimately though it's always the same. Now, that doesn't mean that ever since I can remember I've been wishing for something that just isn't coming true and I keep hoping that one of these nights and one of these stars will suddenly be my "lucky one," that just means that I want this wish every day and for the rest of my life so I'm not going to stop asking the stars to help me attain it.
I sound really childish now don't I?? I mean most "normal" people ( what is normal anyway?) say prayers when in need or to say thanks and to be honest I do that too. But for me, wishing on the stars gives me a sense of remaining "young at heart" which, in my opinion is the best cure for any emotional ailment.
Looking up at a clear night sky, even if it's just for a few seconds, allows me to take some time off from a chaotic day and just breathe. I say a few words (star light star bright yadayadayada....I know you've all done it), pause, dream for a second, and poof my wish has been granted.
What do I wish for you ask that could be granted so quickly?? I'll tell you what....and no I don't believe that my wish won't come true if I share it out loud....because to be truthful, my wish isn't something the stars, God, the sky, the night, or anyone else in this world can grant me.....all the stars are doing is sparkling billions of miles away.....they are something beautiful for me to look at while I pause, breathe, and dream for a few seconds and to me, that is all they need to be.
I wish for first....inner peace of mind even if it only lasts a minute.....which while I stand still staring at the night, I am granted. And second, I wish for happiness of any sort....even if that too only lasts for a minute....which while I stand there, breathing, pausing, dreaming....I am also granted. Any other happinesses I manage to attain are there because I allowed them to be.
Chaos, stress, sadness, anger, frustration are all relative and disappear when I say those words......
"star light, star bright......."
I sound really childish now don't I?? I mean most "normal" people ( what is normal anyway?) say prayers when in need or to say thanks and to be honest I do that too. But for me, wishing on the stars gives me a sense of remaining "young at heart" which, in my opinion is the best cure for any emotional ailment.
Looking up at a clear night sky, even if it's just for a few seconds, allows me to take some time off from a chaotic day and just breathe. I say a few words (star light star bright yadayadayada....I know you've all done it), pause, dream for a second, and poof my wish has been granted.
What do I wish for you ask that could be granted so quickly?? I'll tell you what....and no I don't believe that my wish won't come true if I share it out loud....because to be truthful, my wish isn't something the stars, God, the sky, the night, or anyone else in this world can grant me.....all the stars are doing is sparkling billions of miles away.....they are something beautiful for me to look at while I pause, breathe, and dream for a few seconds and to me, that is all they need to be.
I wish for first....inner peace of mind even if it only lasts a minute.....which while I stand still staring at the night, I am granted. And second, I wish for happiness of any sort....even if that too only lasts for a minute....which while I stand there, breathing, pausing, dreaming....I am also granted. Any other happinesses I manage to attain are there because I allowed them to be.
Chaos, stress, sadness, anger, frustration are all relative and disappear when I say those words......
"star light, star bright......."
posted by Beth @ Monday, May 01, 2006
2 Comments:
At Tuesday, May 02, 2006,
S. K. L. said…
I can stand, staring in awe at two things: stars and skylines. I love skylines, and I love to look at them and wonder about them. So many people were involved to build them, and so many people are involved to maintain them. They signify the heart of a city. So many cities have them, I think it connects us all. I love stars. That is a work of God. Sure there is a scientific reason behind the stars. Suns for other solar systems. But boy, they sure are pretty to look at. Ironically, stars and skylines contradict each other. If you can see hundreds and thousands of stars on a clear night, you are probably not near any light pollution, hence no skylines. Maybe you are out on a lake, deep out into the lake, man those stars could keep me company for years. If you cannot see the stars becuase of light pollution, then you might be surrounded by several illuminated skyscrapers. the excitement of being downtown, being with friends, meeting new people consumes my thoughts.
Stars and skylines. Always looking up. Forward. Thinking. Wishing. Breathing. Sounds like peach of mind to me. Good one Biff.
At Wednesday, May 03, 2006,
Anonymous said…
Ok...I read this and seriously got tears in my eyes. Very nicely written. Then I read what Sean wrote and again....very nice written and beautiful. But, all of that fuzzy, proud of you two emotion goes to "what the freak" is this lunatic doing writing on your blog. That's why I don't care for blogs...any freak can write or comment on them. What is up with that...like you are going to call that number...
Anyway, love you great writing and great comment Sean.
Love you both..
AC
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