sweet/not so sweet time on my side

Oohhh to have the time to sit down and write again.

That's actually a lame excuse, Beth.....but nice try.

Just because I've been taking classes 2 days a week and working every day doesn't mean for one second I haven't had the time. I've been busy, sure....but never too busy.

So it's official, I've been a writing lazy bum. I've allowed myself to get caught up in other things and have let it slip from my mind how much I actually enjoy doing this whole writing thing. How good I am at it is neither here nor there.....I just like it and have not been nurturing it properly.

Now that I am sitting in front of my computer with the "time" and energy to devote to this one task, I am at loss for words which isn't typical for me....I have so-called "words" for every/anything....but now when it's completely necessary to have "words" they've escaped me.

HOW RUDE!!

All I wanna do is talk.....or write.....but noooooo that's just too much to ask for. Something interesting to write about is too much to ask for. Screw that! I'm not even asking....I'm demanding that I have something, hell, anything to write about....but the words have vanished. Disappeared into thin air. Ever to reappear???? I DON'T KNOW!! YOU TELL ME!!!

I could talk about growing my hair out if you'd like. I cut it short last year.....yep, took off like 8 inches and ever since I decided to grow it out it's taking forever to get back to a good length.....OH my goodness am I serious???? Am I seriously writing about how long it's taking my hair to grow out?!?!? I'm gonna end up losing all my faithful readers (all 3 of them) to sheer boredom......my readers will be sitting at their computers with the "time" to read and maybe even comment on this long over-due newest blog of mine only to place their chins in their hand, fight to keep their eyes open for a solid minute and then BOOM hit their heads on their desks becuz I'm BORING THEM TO SLEEP!!!!!

Am I having trouble because it's easier for me to write when something huge is happening to me like a break-up, a move to another state, a family member's death, etc??? I don't even really know why I keep asking all these questions to noone in particular because no one else can answer them but me, so why bother??? Maybe this is just a huge case of writer's block and all I need to do is step away from my computer for a few minutes....maybe an hour....come back to it refreshed and ready....right??? There I go with the unanswerable questions again.

I don't know. Maybe this is it my loving, faithful readers. Maybe my writing ship has sailed and I'll never find anything interesting to write about again. How sad of a thought is that??? Deep down I know that can't possibly be true....or maybe it can.

One thing that is certain at this point......I'm boring myself right now.